2 years ago i dated a younger man who, to this day i still adore.Our relationship took place in Germany and we broke it off because he could not get over the age gap difference and he got a job offer in London.

BUT, the idea of going back to london absolutely thrilled me (i studied here at a very famous collge 6 years ago) and i wanted to give it a go.i did not want to be left behind in a city (münich) where i did not have enough work and had hit a cul-de-sac!So here i am, in London again!

I must add that i was honest enough with myself to know that if i never see this boy again, at least i have got my spark and drive back.I am back in my ‘territory.’I have more job opportunities than i could wish for and i am back with my creative freinds which does something very good to my soul!I am that confident,vibrant person i know myself to be.My life has taken a 180 degree change.

SO…Here it is…the Law Of Attraction introduced me to this gorgeous boy ,who got me questioning where i am going with my life which in turn got me back to London where i am so determined to give it my best.

BUt..(Mimi, I am sure you would say this is not what you do!?)I got hold of him on my 40th birthday

In my mind, and in the time we had not seen each other (3 months), i thought he was having a very glamorous life here in London,(he works in the financial area) but he was not,he wanted to go back to Germany because he felt nothing was working for him here.

Before leaving he stayed with me for a couple of days.While he was staying with me he saw another side of London which he really likes (alternative,creative area) and managed to get a job interview which seems very promising.Now, he is talking about finding a flat around my area if he gets that job.

My question is…all these things seem like miracles to me..proof of the Law Of Attraction(because i so desire,love and want him).BUT…last night it dawned on me that it would be convenient for him to live near me (there is still so much attraction between us) and we are still freinds and he gets to meet my freinds, but he no doubt still cannot get over the age difference!

I am terrified of falling back into my old insecurities if he moves back to London.He has left his luggage with me while he is back in Germany for another job interview and i am begining to feel like i am being way too nice again.This is not what i wanted to be… i wanted to be strong enough to resist him and let him go.I want to be that tough ,smart woman and let him come and find me.It’s my fault! i initiated the contact! I believed the Law Of Attraction was making him come back to me but actually he is just sweet lovely guy who does not want to feel so alone in London. This is ,however no guarantee that he wants to be with me!

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Filomena
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